Now THAT is an original title! As you may have guessed, this is my first tumblr post. I don’t 100% get it yet. I heard about it from jennaanne01.tumblr.com. Not from that account of course, from one of her many, many youtube accounts.
On one such account, she posted about tumblr and she mentioned that it’s a great place to talk without people you knowing reading about it. A journal, of sorts… except strangers can read it… Now that I think about it, that doesn’t sound appealing at all… Well, this is awkward.
I don’t see an edit profile button, so maybe I’ll say something about myself. If you know who Jennaanne01 is then you might have guessed this already. I’m a lesbian. Which is why this site appeals to me. I’m still “in the closet.” Now, if someone were to come up to me and ask me, I would 100% tell the truth. Some of my friends know, some don’t. I suspect that some of my friends have guessed. I’m ok with the way things are right now. I feel no need to shout it out to the world. If I was straight, I wouldn’t sit my parents down and tell them I’m straight, so why should I make a big deal about being gay? I’m single, so there’s no issue of me introducing my girlfriend to my parents. As long as I’m single and live at home, I see no reason to bring the issue up. Yes. I live at home. I’m a “starving student,” alright?
I don’t know how my parents will react when I tell them, so I think it’s better not to do it while I rely on them for a place to live. Now, if I ever find a girl that is important enough to me that I want my parents to know about her, obviously I’ll tell them. I also don’t want my work to find out. I’m a lifeguard/swimming instructor at my local pool. Great job, most of the time I love it. However, when I first started working there, before I had even admitted to myself that I was gay, I heard about the only out lesbian to ever work at that pool. She did not have a good reputation. The girls I work with claim she was always looking and how they were so uncomfortable around her. Now, I wasn’t there. Maybe she was a total perv, I mean, who really knows? But, somehow, I doubt it. And, I’m being completely honest here, I do not look. I make a point of turning away because, when I do come out, I don’t want people to have any ammo for accusing me of that stuff.
That’s a lot for my first post. I’ll let you digest that. Maybe I’ll do some homework (God, I’m funny!). Ciao, lovely people.