You feel that life’s problems have backed you into a corner, which is causing you stress and anxiety. You are actively seeking a way out of your current problems. And though you have the ability to connect with others both physically and emotionally, any stress in your life can easily derail both, leading you to question yourself and your abilities.
To others you will likely seem introverted and suspicious. Disappointment has lead you to withdraw from the world and to seek solace in yourself. You have a naturally naive and excitable personality that has previously led you astray or has caused problems socially. You are often afraid of your own enthusiasm. A constant fear of being exploited has lead you to a natural cynicism and suspicious attitude.
You feel misunderstood and this sense is causing anxiety and frustration, leading to a conflict with your sense of self-worth. Other people’s judgement is brought into question, because you feel that no one in your immediate sphere is completely reliable or completely understands you. Such feelings can lead to a pronounced egotism or temper.
You will often assume an attitude of superiority or disdain. This masks a strong sense of inferiority and a need to be loved or respected. The desire that you have for social respect has led you to behave as if you were completely self-reliant, despite the fact that you are terrified of failure. You will take any opportunity to prove your own importance, even to the point of self-destruction. Similarly, criticism can be met with extreme contempt. Displays of respect will help to break down this artificial barrier.
You are lacking in confidence at the moment, most likely due to a sense that you may not achieve your immediate goals, whether professional or romantic (yes). You are currently in a delicate state, having extended yourself into a new realm of experience, one which has not yet proven itself to be successful (hello, JUST bought my first horse). A need for calm surroundings in which to strive for success is apparent.
Pressure and stress have left you feeling that the best course of action is immediate freeing escape (Yep. I’m a classic runner. Shit gets difficult I “run.” I faint when the pain is physical, I escape mentally by day dreaming, reading or sleeping. Right now, my escape has been sleep). You are frustrated and have begun to weaken from the effort of facing your day to day problems. Sometimes the problems of the day can seem to come from deliberate antipathy of those around you, although this is often imagined.